I recently had lunch with a good friend. He told me that he set a goal for himself for the start of school. He had a few setbacks along the way, but now that those roadblocks are gone, he is going to start back on the road to his goal. This really got me thinking. I have ALWAYS been a GREAT goal setter. The only problem was I didn't have the follow through to reach the goal. I have had a goal to lose 30 pounds for the last 7 years. And in reality I have lost at least 30 lbs during that time frame. The only problem is that it was 2 lbs here and 5 lbs there. Unfortunately, I would gain those 2 lbs or 5 lbs back before I lost any more.
I have been a breast cancer survivor for 10 years this coming October. I'm not sure that I is the term any longer. Actually, now I am in my 3rd year of living with Stage IV or metastatic cancer. I want to be known more for living rather than surviving. The connotations are very different, at least in my mind. Survival, to me, is getting through whatever obstacle is in front of you. Living is not letting the obstacle get in your way. I did survive, first chemo and then radiation 10 years ago. I lived a really good 7 years not even giving thought to the cancer that had disrupted my life for 10 months. I had fought through and survived. Don't look back. WRONG. Seven years later, the cancer fought back and now I have bone metastasis in several locations. The good news, it isn't anywhere else. So now I LIVE with cancer. I take an oral chemo therapy and have had several surgeries and a couple of rounds of radiation to help slow the growth and stop the pain that I was in.
Now, three years into this new life, I am fighting my inner self with the goal setting issues I have had over the years. Fear and will power have been my two greatest obstacles to battle in my fight for my goals. Accountability has also been lacking in my past attempts.
I am hoping that this blog will become my accountability for my new goal. What is the new goal you ask? Tune in tomorrow to find out.......
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